Timing, Patience, Trust and Relationship
Should I sign up this week?
Do I go next semester?
Is now the right time?
Should I ask now?
How am I supposed to know when the time is right?
Why do I ask questions that I already know the answer to? Like this one. I know why I ask. I ask because I don't like the answer. I don't want the answer to be, "Seek God." That's not a simple yes or no! It's that age old story about the kid (that's me) who wants patience but he wants it right now!
When the pastor tells me that all the answers are found in the Bible, I want it to go like this...
It would be amazing. Except, where is the relationship in that? Where is the faith, the trust that our very salvation rests upon? As frustrating as the wait can be, it builds our faith and prepares us for the bigger things to come. If anything, it should be encouragement to grow closer to God so we can better hear his voice and direction. Now if I can only remember that...
God, you know my thoughts, my wants and desires, feelings and emotions. You know when I need direction before I even know I'm on a new journey! Thank you for this chance to grow closer to you. Help me to not become frustrated with where I am, but instead to learn how to completely trust you with every aspect of my life. Light my path, guide my steps and allow your glory to shine throughout this journey.
Do I go next semester?
Is now the right time?
Should I ask now?
How am I supposed to know when the time is right?
Why do I ask questions that I already know the answer to? Like this one. I know why I ask. I ask because I don't like the answer. I don't want the answer to be, "Seek God." That's not a simple yes or no! It's that age old story about the kid (that's me) who wants patience but he wants it right now!
When the pastor tells me that all the answers are found in the Bible, I want it to go like this...
Me: Pastor, should I major in music or computer science?Just a Bible verse and a quick little bit of counting and you've got an answer. No pain, no waiting, no wondering what the next step is, nothing but a quick answer.
Pastor: First we will label music as number one and computer science as number two. Now your answer will be found in Matthew 6:33.
Me: Amen, pastor! Okay, alright, let me look that verse up. Mathew, Matthew... oh, right, here it is!
But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.
What does that mean, pastor?
Pastor: Never mind what it says! What's the third letter of the fifth word?
Me: Umm... G?
Pastor: Alright, now count up to G and tell me what number it is.
Me: Okay, lets see. One is A, two is B, three is...
Pastor: Shh! I'm busy here, count in your head!
Me: Oh, sorry... it's seven!
Pastor: Good, good. Seven is an odd number just like one, and one is the number we gave for music. So, according to Matthew 6:33, you, my friend, are to major in music!
It would be amazing. Except, where is the relationship in that? Where is the faith, the trust that our very salvation rests upon? As frustrating as the wait can be, it builds our faith and prepares us for the bigger things to come. If anything, it should be encouragement to grow closer to God so we can better hear his voice and direction. Now if I can only remember that...
God, you know my thoughts, my wants and desires, feelings and emotions. You know when I need direction before I even know I'm on a new journey! Thank you for this chance to grow closer to you. Help me to not become frustrated with where I am, but instead to learn how to completely trust you with every aspect of my life. Light my path, guide my steps and allow your glory to shine throughout this journey.
posted by Jake A. Smith at
1:26 AM
2 Comments:
Jake, thank you for stopping by my blog and for your comment! I just wanted to commend you on this post... it is beautiful and so true, for all of us.
Grace and peace,
Claire (Lily Maiden)
Phil 4:8
Wanting patience right now...I can empathize. =)
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